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1.
Can't Get Out Lyrics: (Pick up sticks) In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart Everyone's got a beat they're marching to Everyone's got a beat they're marching to Everyone's got a heart for something Everyone's got a hard on for something Everyone's got a fear for something to In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart To tell me apart Everyone's got a beat they're marching to Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm being alone Like it should be It's already warm don't tell me to chill You won't get it from me There's new eyeliner in my car Unopened and under the floor You got it with me You got it with me Ohhhhhh ohh oh ohhh ohh Ohhhhhh ohh oh ohhh ohh In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart In your heart in my head There's someone in my head I can't get out And I need some help to tell me apart Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm being alone Like it should be Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm don't tell me to chill You won't get it from me Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm being alone Like it should be Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm don't tell me to chill You won't get it from me Everyone's got a beat they're marching to It's already warm being alone Like it should be It's already warm don't tell me to chill You won't get it from me
2.
Away 04:01
Away Lyrics: Here we go once again Another pair of eyes looking by Another pair of legs away Here we go once again Another pair of eyes looking by I notice mine I look away I can't look at the sky I can't look at the sky tonight If I look away can you look for me (please I can't all I see is you) I can't look at the sky I can't look at the sky tonight I don't want this to be just a phase in my life I'm gonna be alone its not your choice its mine I don't want this to be just a phase in my life I'm gonna be alone its not your choice its mine Here we go once again (never again) Another pair of eyes looking by Another pair of legs away Here we go once again (never again) Another pair of eyes looking by I notice mine I look away (forward) I can't look at the sky I can't look at the sky tonight I can't look at the sky I can't look at the sky tonight
3.
Night Before 02:57
Night Before Lyrics: The night before You came oh you came you came around The night before You came oh you came you came around Around the door you were And everyone was waiting Around the door for sure And everyone stopped waiting The night before You came oh you came you came around The night before You came oh you came you came around You were home alone And everyone was out alone And you were home with everything And everyone was out with everything And you said now and you said With a chuckle you got my tracks memorized And you said now and you said Another day so Where the fuck am I Another stage I'll dream up something I'll dream up something And each day its getting easier to find me And each day its getting easier to find me Another day so Where the fuck are you I'll leave it at that Another day so And you said
4.
Winter Air 04:19
Winter Air Lyrics: I see your red hair In this cold winter air We have a smoothie in the winter and I chase you round back You look at me and you beg, I don't want you to see her I take a step back (back) and I wipe off the tears on your face Cuz they're falling fast Just like the Tetris blocks on our screen When we head back I see your red hair In this cold winter air Uh oh I needed something (I wanted something I wanted something) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (I wanted something I wanted something) (I see your red hair) I see your red hair In this cold winter air I mark a line on your wall and you go turn on the tv (Turn on the tv) Get each other off while our friend fails high school (Fucking failed high school) Crash down the hill like I crash my car down the street White fence there separating me After the party my mind was on something (else) Uh oh I needed something (I wanted something I wanted something) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (I wanted something I wanted something) Uh oh I needed something (I wanted something I wanted something) (I was so sorry) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) (I was so sorry) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (In this cold winter air) (I was so sorry) Uh oh I needed something I wanted something (I wanted something I wanted something) (I was so sorry) (I wanted something)
5.
Faint 03:28
Faint Lyrics: Keep saying you're dead to me You keep saying you're dead to me so You keep saying don't affiliate Just keep saying I'll be nonexistent Every time I'll tell you what I'll say I can be that Faint memory so I can be that Faint memory so Keep telling your Keep saying that Keep telling yourself I'm away I can be that Faint memory so Keep saying you're dead to me Keep saying you're dead to me Keep saying you're dead to me Keep saying you're dead to me Keep saying you're dead to me ~ PlayStation Controller Solo ~ (Keep saying you're dead to me) Keep saying you're dead to me Keep saying you're dead to me You keep saying you're dead to me so Just keep saying don't affiliate Just keep saying you'll be nonexistent Every time I'll tell you go away I can be that Faint memory so I can be that Faint memory so Keep telling your Keep saying that Keep telling yourself I'm away I can be that Faint memory so
6.
Awake 03:57
Awake Lyrics: Sitting with all of your friends (And they) And they hardly know you It doesn't matter you'll take that shot glass Anyway I see you're stitll here (Dude you gotta hear this, I dont want to) A way you feel with a sense of connection Hearing thoughts of a second delay Falling on top of ourselves we love to think We all live for this anyway Why are we still awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight (Awake awake awake) Why are we both awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight Its too complex for anyone or anything We start to see, as everyone can see the difference Our thoughts we promised to never let surface Thats okay, I see you're still here Why are we still awake Our throat burns and we can not think straight Why are we both awake Our throat burns and we can not think straight Why are we still awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight (We silence your thoughts that remain) (Awake awake awake) Why are we both awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight Our thoughts mix with our own words We can't control the things we have promised Your silent thoughts, they will remain here Everyone (Everyone) Is still watching (Everyone) Why are we still awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight (We silence your thoughts that remain) Why are we both awake (We can't control everyone) Our throat burns and we can not think straight (We silence your thoughts that remain)
7.
Lies 05:34
Lies Lyrics (Vocals by Becky Cumbie): Samples: I, Hear, These, Lies, I, Swear, I'm, Fine, Just, Leave, Me, Here (Ahhs) Lyrics: I never wanted it all I never wanted to hear you say I never wanted it all I never wanted to hear you say lies
8.
Thumb Tack 03:54
Thumb Tack Lyrics: My mind saw My eyes thought I never want to go around this line I I put myself in A green ray in the sky A gold cloud goes rolling by and I I put myself in Clothes roll around the washing room Dust on the walls they resemble you You put yourself in You put yourself in You put yourself in Here we go oh everyday Thumb tack still bringing me down at the counter One fifty and you're still smiling Here we go oh everyday Thumb tack still bringing you down at the counter oh One fifty and you can't take it The change in your pocket's Not enough to carve a cat in your thigh Carve a cat in your thigh I don't need an adventure I'm already to dizzy to remember It's all in my mind There's no flying carpet to New York There's no flying carpet to up north Here we go oh everyday Thumb tack still bringing me down at the counter One fifty and you're still smiling Here we go oh everyday Thumb tack still bringing you down at the counter oh One fifty and you can't take it You put yourself in You put yourself in
9.
Automatic 03:40
Automatic Lyrics: Everyone should shutter At the thought Everyone should be frantic You'll try to help to pick up Those around you Everyone should shutter At the thought You'll try to help to pick up (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) Those around you These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto matic matic (glitch) (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto matic matic (glitch) (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic There humans are so automatic (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) These humans are so automatic There humans are so automatic (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic I'm just saying nothing makes a difference There humans are so automatic (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic I'm just saying nothing makes a difference There humans are so automatic (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto matic matic (glitch) (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto matic matic (glitch) (These Humans) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (I'm just saying nothing makes a difference) (These humans are so automatic) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so automatic now (These Humans) (I'm just saying nothing makes a difference) (These humans are so automatic) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto auto matic (These Humans) (I'm just saying nothing makes a difference) (These humans are so automatic) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference These humans are so auto auto auto matic (These Humans) (I'm just saying nothing makes a difference) (These humans are so automatic) (Nowwww Nooo Noo Noo Nah) I'm just saying nothing makes a difference
10.
Mistaken 03:25
Mistaken Lyrics: You're all on your own now I'll say so please stop please stop please stop please stop dwelling now You're all on your own now So please please please please The less we know The more we know So just hear me go Please just let her go The more we know The less we know So just hear me go Please just let me go (Please stop please stop please stop please stop) The less we know The more we know So just hear me go Please just let her go The more we know The less we know So just hear me go Please just let me go (Please stop please stop please stop please stop) If you think This might go away If you think This might go away You may or may not May or may not be mistaken You may or may not May or may not be mistaken Come on I dare you Show me make a difference now I'll say so please stop please stop please stop please stop dwelling now You're all on your own now So please please please please The less we know The more we know So just hear me go Please just let her go The more we know The less we know So just hear me go Please just let me go (Please stop please stop please stop please stop) The less we know The more we know So just hear me go Please just let her go The more we know The less we know So just hear me go Please just let me go (Please stop please stop please stop please stop) If you think This might go away If you think This might go away You may or may not May or may not be mistaken You may or may not May or may not be mistaken If you think This might go away If you think This might go away You may or may not May or may not be mistaken You may or may not May or may not be mistaken
11.
& 03:03
& Lyrics: And she said Don't whine about it I'm channeling whats left of me And she said Don't worry about it I'm channeling whats left of me In time Our homes are where are homes are where We're forced to go I've lost my mind about it (Inhale Glitch) In time Our homes are where our homes are where We're forced to stay You've lost your head about it (Inhale Glitch) Ohh I'm falling apart There's more to me Ohh I'm falling apart There's more to me (AHH Glitch) And she said Don't worry about it I'm fine I'm fine (Fine fine fine fine) And she said Don't worry about it I'm fine I'm fine (Fine fine fine fine) In time (In time) Our homes are where are homes are where (Our homes are where are homes are where) We don't know (We're forced to go) (Ohh) (Fine fine fine fine) We don't know (I've lost my mind about it) (Inhale Glitch) In time (In time) Our homes are where are homes are where (Our homes are where are homes are where) We don't know (We're forced to stay) (Ohh) (Fine fine fine fine) We don't know (You've lost your head about it) (Inhale Glitch) Ohh I'm falling apart There's more to me Ohh I'm falling apart There's more to me (AHH Glitch)
12.
Where I've Been Lyrics: (AHH Glitch) The earth spins round Every day No matter what we do Remains the same It's already warm Being alone Don't tell me to chill I've been here all my own (& Where I've Been) And where I've been We don't really know And where we've been We don't really want to know Titles and places stand For what we try to understand Titles and places stand Where where we all try to stand (Ahh) And where I've been We don't really know (Ahh) And where we've been We don't really want to know (Ahh) Titles and places stand For what we try to understand (Ahh) Titles and places stand Where where we all try to stand In your heart In my head It's already warm Being alone Don't tell me to chill I've been here all my own Everyone's got a beat They're marching to It's already warm Being alone~ (Drop Sticks)

about

This Album is literally a Time Capsule to when I was alone growing up and the overall message I want anyone to walk away with is it's okay to be alone and it's okay to feel things.

There's more to life than just striving for that title or place you want to be or that person you desperately want to see yourself with. Sometimes it's just beautiful to be alive and we get so caught up in all the bullshit that we forget that.

At the end of the day we're all alone together because everything can vanish in an instant and each day is worth all we have. Everything else is just a bonus so take what you have and cherish it, even if it's just you. You're worth it.



On a Personal Note I'd like to Thank the Following People:

- Tesia Camillo (Wife) for being that person I desperately wanted to see myself with for so long. I'm so proud of you for being such a strong willed young woman and everything you have accomplished. You inspire me to achieve greater things and we make an incredible team. As I told your Father I plan on taking really good care of you, I guess I'm lucky that you're so independent that you make everything look easy. I tend to embarrass myself from time to time. Thanks for coming to those Open Mics with me and letting me get you Blue Motorcycles all those years ago. You were gorgeous then and even more beautiful every day. I love you.

- Thomas Duerig (Brother) I have the most skilled and talented Brother in the Universe who will get back up from anything and he didn't even Skateboard like I did growing up. This man can get hit by a fucking car and have his earlobe dangling half off and still crank out like what 3-4 Albums last year? Amongst other more personal things I've seen him bounce back from. He is the most caring Brother, and Father I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and there are no words to even begin to show how much I have learned from him both on a personal level and on a music/technical level. I love you fam.
(Follow him @ The Purge and @ Nur Black)

- Kyle (Fuck you Kyle, if you know you know) This guy has been in my life for what feels like forever, atleast a decade. Truth is hes probably the most chill guy I know and he doesn't really do much aside from play Video Games and collect Anime Figs. Let me tell you what though. He somehow managed to find a circle of friends that fucking love him. This dork who used to stay inside his parents house all those years ago playing Mass Effect instead of coming outside with us. Truth is that was me to for a time. We've both grown together and he offered (without me asking) to help me take my Album Photo because he's a true friend. Old Kyle would have stayed inside. Thanks Kyle.

-Cj (F.R.O.G Enthusiast) Literally the first night we hung out we went shot for shot and passed out with a bunch of tallys on our arm, good ol' highschool days. She would probably out drink me now. Long story short with Cj is I've known her forever and as much as we've butt heads or had love/hate moments whatever you want to call that, she's always been there. She somehow managed to show everyone at our wedding (Tesia and I) pictures of me wearing a Skirt/Cross Dressing on a projector and everybody loved it. She's tough as nails and a genuinely fun person. Thanks for always being there even when you're not.

-Jarrett (Ohio is for Lovers) This motherfucker shares my love for everything Emo and is just generally a awesome fucking person. He talks about doing it in the butt a lot and he's a really dope dude to drink with. Pretty much just sends me Emo and Star Wars Memes. We went to a Hawthorne Heights Concert and it was the first time I met his now fiance who is equally as awesome. They moved to Ohio and I'm pretty sure if Ohio is for Lovers they'll be happily ever after. Best of luck fam we miss you down here.

To all my Friends and Family, I could write something for everyone I know but it would take forever so I'll just leave it with this. If you've ever known me or been around long enough to make an impression. You have, and I am thankful for each and everyone of you. I have learned so much and wouldn't have changed a thing. Thank you all.

credits

released May 1, 2020

Jonathan Duerig
(Producer, Songwriter, Singer, Musician, Mixing, Mastering)

Thomas Duerig
(Mixing, Mastering)

Becky Cumbie
(Singer)

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